Monday, December 1, 2008

It Is a 5 Day Work Week

I didn't sleep well again last night. I am pretty sure I was dreaming but I cant remember the details. I used to sleep so well before K2. He must have rubbed off on me. I woke up this morning annoyed at my alarm. It was so nice not being told what to do for those wonderful four days. Alarm went off. Grumpy me got up. Grumpy me got in the shower. Grumpy me got even grumpier when I realized I would be in work in an hour.

I start having anxiety come about 4PM on Sunday afternoon. I have to put it aside because it gets so bad that sometimes it can ruin my whole evening. I hate Monday anxiety. What a drag. I find whenever I am sad or anxious about something I really have to concentrate my positive energy. Not wanting to go to work can easily turn into missing K2, thoughts of self-hatred, depression etc. How easy those feelings can creep in.

Good news. I can usually stop myself now. I give my hurt and pain a few minutes or hours and then put it in a box. Done.

Today I am grateful for:

The program
My family
My trip to Germany
P.S. I went to church yesterday. I will blog more tomorrow :)


Cat said...

Changing your direction sounds like it worked - I know that takes practice for me - sometimes just faking it is all I can do.

Gabriella Moonlight said...

What a great and honest blog. I too used to have that Monday anxiety and generalized anxiety. Today thanks to the program it's so much better. I just appreciate those who understand!

Have a great week.

big Jenn said...

I think that feeling pain is not a bad thing. Sometimes just letting myself be there and kind of observing it makes me know that it's just a feeling, it won't kill helps me to move foward. jeNN

jiggins said...

I think you sound more sure of yourself than ever, as far as I have known anyway. They are called steps :) So one at a time. Sending some positive energy your way!

~Tyra~ said...

I get Monday anxiety as well.

Syd said...

I start feeling the Monday blahs on Sunday afternoon. This week I'm home so far with a bad cold. Yuck! I'm sick of being sick.